Since so many people are writing about “wannarexics” lately, I kinda felt the need to put my two cents in.

A while ago I read a blog by Seven23july, and she said: “I think people pretend a multitude of things to express their pain, and "dabbling" in an eating disorder is just one. I do feel that the term wannarexic invalidates someone's struggle. EVERY anorexic was at one time above the weight limit for the diagnosis. Losing that one last pound to "qualify" doesn't make them better than anyone else who struggles MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY in the same way. And my god, who the fuck wants to be BETTER at emotional pain anyway?!?!?”

Honestly. I understand anorexia is a serious disorder. I’ve done extensive research on it, written 4 papers on it, one being a fifteen page paper for a psych class. I understand the disorder. And lately when I’ve been reading these blogs I feel like I’m being invalidated. Never have I once claimed to be anorexic, or have a specific eating disorder (although I too so badly used to crave that title. I wanted to be broken. I wanted someone to worry about me when I felt like everyone had given up on me. I wanted someone to notice.) I was pretty much bulimic, throwing up at least once a day for 4 months (and at least twice a week for the year prior) But I never said I was bulimic because I wasn’t diagnosed. But for people to sit on here and whine about “wannarexics” it’s not fair.

I don’t have an “eating disorder. That doesn’t mean I don’t cry when I look in the mirror. That doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes have panic attacks before work because I can’t find something to wear because all my clothes “make me look fat”. That doesn’t mean I don’t have a distorted perception of my body. That doesn’t mean I don’t beat myself up emotionally. That doesn’t mean I don’t hate myself. That doesn’t mean I don’t feel worthless. I do. Just because someone’s pain controls them in a different way, in a more dangerous way, it doesn’t mean I don’t feel that pain.

I’m in a better place than I was a year ago; in a place where I don’t so badly crave to be “Broken” or saved. Sometimes the feeling creeps in, and it takes control for a few days and I’ll get by on a few hundred calories, some days I’ll eat a huge meal and go throw it right back up, some days I’ll work out enough to make sure I’ve burned the calories I’ve consumed. But it hasn’t fully taken over in almost a year. But sometimes I wish I never let it fade away. I’m not sure if that makes me a wannarexic or if it just makes me a little crazy. But I know it doesn’t change the fact that I’m not happy with my body, and chances are I never will be.  

For those of you who think eating healthy is expensive

  Sorry, but you don't get to use that as an excuse for cereal anymore :]

thats a little blurry, 27.52 cents per ounce.
while honey bunches of oats isn't the worst choice you could make, its still not all natural


again, blurry, my bad, 24.94 cents an ounce
newman's own. all natural. cheaper than honey bunches of oats.


23.47 cents an ouce. Cascadian farms, organic. Cheapest. 

Chocolate lucky charms. 33.25 cents an ounce, the most expensicve and the least healthy.

I didn't take a picture of it, cause I was in a rush, but Kashi Heart to Heart (while its not at cheap as Cascadian Farms, I think it was something like 32cents an ounce) is cute, they look like little smushed cherrios and hearts.

all natural, and even kids would love it.

Obviously I didn't have the time to run around the whole store and snap pictures of everything and compare the prices, but I'll probably do some installments of these little posts :]

I definately recomend checking out that Newman's Own cereal, its new but its delish and so is Cascadian Farms if you like granola.
 

How to fix the economy.

(The 19 year olds perspective)

Stop shopping at Walmart. Okay, well that alone won’t fix it, but stop buying foreign made… EVERYTHING.

Outsourcing factories to China means we can buy a cheaper TV. But does it really save you that much money? When you out source jobs to china sure we get our products for cheaper, but you don’t think about the hidden charges that come along with outsourcing. Every job we outsource is another person in our country without a job, living on unemployment, Welfare, and Medicaid (and those who don’t even qualify for that and end up going to the hospital because they’re dying, but can’t pay their bills, yeah, we end up paying for that too).

However, this would probably be the last step.

First, the media needs to stop telling everyone the Economy is bad. Telling the country “cut out your morning Starbucks and save $800 a year”, guess what, people stop buying as much Starbucks, several Starbucks close, and hundreds of people are without jobs. The media telling everyone in the country ways to pinch pennies is putting more people out of work and hurting the economy even more.

Second, CEOs and CFOs and VPs and Presidents of companies, give up for $800,000 dollar a year bonuses. You don’t even have to give it up; just cut it in half, that’s at 8 people (per bonus) in your company that could continue to put food on their families table.

Third, the housing crisis. If a person was making their payments on time for years and years, and stopped after the bank raised their interest rate, the banks just need to suck it up, lower the people’s interest rate to what they were paying before otherwise they’re just going to lose even more.

Take my families situation for example, house was bought 8 years ago for $210k, refinanced 4 years ago appraised at $245k, now, our house is worth $80k. The house is in foreclosure and the mortgage company refuses to work with our Credit union who wants to take over the loan.

They’re cutting off their nose to spite their face.  As are many mortgage companies.

America is far too greedy and its hurting our country.

You’re not “healthy”, sorry.

I’m sick of people “dieting” and eating “reduced-fat” foods, and drinking diet sodas, and eating things that are loaded with chemicals.

Sorry to burst your bubble, sweetie, but that’s not healthy. Ingesting chemicals such as aspartame (in any diet soda or anything that says “sugar free”) and monosodium glutamate (in just about anything with flavoring, unless it’s all natural) and high fructose corn syrup (regardless of those new sweetsuprise.com commercials. “Fine in moderation,” too bad it’s in almost every single thing on the grocery store shelf, that’s not moderation) isn’t healthy. Processed foods aren’t healthy. Fresh fruits and vegetables are healthy. Fresh meats, from animals not injected with hormones and other weird chemicals, are healthy.  Juices without sugar added are healthy. Water is healthy. 

This week I’ve cooked a lot of my own meals for the first time in a long time. It taste so much better to cook my own organic chicken breasts in my organic coconut oil with my brown rice and fresh green beans than it does to go to McDonalds, or even eat one of those “healthy” Lean Cuisines meals chocked full of preservatives and chemicals. In the past week I’ve made chicken breast with spaghetti, chicken and brown rice and green beans as mentioned before, steak with steamed veggies, and roasted red potatoes, breaded chicken with steamed veggies, and it’s wonderful. I love cooking and knowing what’s going into what I’m eating.  

Yeah, sometimes I don’t want to really cook, that’s why my freezer is stuffed with various steam in bag veggies and rice, and these delicious all natural Kashi meals. Takes five minutes in the microwave and I’m set with a healthy meal. And of course, sometimes I still end up running to Mc Donalds or where ever, but it’s not nearly as much as it used to be, and that makes me very proud of myself.

These are just some things I’ve noticed over the past year as I went to the more all natural eating.
Organic milk taste so much better than regular milk.
No sugar added cranberry juice taste so much better than diet coke, water for that matter is better than diet coke.
Fresh made all natural muffins taste so much better than your 100 calorie pack muffins.
Cascadian Farms makes some delicious organic cereals, and Kashi is always great.

But honestly, don’t fool yourself with your “diet coke” and your “reduced fat cheese”

Read Skinny Bitch if you don’t believe me, It will change your life, I almost guarantee you that.

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well this got featured on healthkicker, but idont feel like replying to everyone on there, so in the event any of them actually click to my site from there, I would like to say, I'm not saying eating all natural is the only way to be healthy, and that everyone should drop what they eat and switch to organic or you're going to die tomorrow. Honestly, did I not just say I still give in and occasionally go to McDonalds, but my life over all is much healthier than it once was. People seem to think I'm saying eating natural/organic is the only way to eat, but I said people who claim to be dieting and thinnk they are soooo healthy, when in reality they are filling their bodies with unneeded chemicals.

Which sports teams do you support, and how serious are you about them?

Tampa Bay Lightning. I support them through winning and losing, I was with them before they won the Stanely Cup (altho, I was more interested then. I could still probably tell you the team roster, their jersey number and their position) but I've stuck with them after and the past few seasons that they've done terribly.

I also follow the Tampa Bay Rays casually. Of course I watched everygame of their playoff run last year, but, it was a big deal for them, i was happy for them. 

   

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